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Entries for October, 2006
| October 1st, 2006 |
| Goodbye Steve Irwin~ |
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I'm so on top of news that I only had the confirmation today that Steve Irwin – the Australian conservationist, the Crocodile Hunter - died last month. I used to watch The Crocodile Hunter while I was in the US and I loved that energetic and passionate guy with the Aussie accent. Seeing him dealing with crocodiles, snakes, spiders and all... I remembered I had this thought that the dude wouldn't live a very long life seeing all the risks he was taking. Well... a stingray got him. His wife, Terri Rains, once said about him: "I thought there was no one like this anywhere in the world. He sounded like an environmental Tarzan, a larger-than-life superhero guy." Australia lost a son... and I am sad with them. So long, Steve. And thank you. 
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| Posted by Pouick at 09:58 PM in Random | 7 bla bla |
| October 2nd, 2006 |
| Tabulas: Three Years~ |
Next Monday, I will celebrate my 3rd Tabulas birthday. I'm very surprised to still be there and still be updating regularly. And I'm happy I did so... My head is full of holes, it makes me remember things.  I had a down time in 2004, though. There is entries only for the month of February and September. I came back only on February 2005.I went trough my statistics but unfortunately, as far as hit count goes, I didn't note anything so I have no records before June 2005. Too bad. But from what I have, I can see a huge hit peak in August 2005 and 2006. I guess people are bored to death during the month of August each year. Between June 05 and September 06 : - Lower hit count is for July 2005 with only 579 hits. - Higher hit count is for August 2006 with 5'631 hits. USA and Japan used to be the top visitors a few months back. Now, it seems to be different each month. • April 2006: 1. United States - 652 2. Netherlands - 53 3. France - 50 • May 2006: 1. Japan - 1'258 2. United States - 324 3. Switzerland - 93 • June 2006: 1. United States - 388 2. France - 64 3. Switzerland - 58 • July 2006: 1. Sweden - 441 2. United States - 233 3. Switzerland - 171 • August 2006: 1. Switzerland - 553 2. United States - 295 3. Sweden - 294 • September 2006: France - 357 United States - 352 Switzerland - 255 Japan disappeared from the top visitors list. From my last IP tracking, the visits came from a university in Japan. I guess they stopped studying Tabulas blogs (cause it couldn't have been just one person).
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| Posted by Pouick at 08:54 AM in Tabulas | 8 bla bla |
| October 4th, 2006 |
| The Midnight Drawing~ |
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These days, a lot of people give me inspiration... I drew that one quickly before going to bed. I think it needs color. I'll probably do that another day. I used a pen I bought in Japan and I love it. I think I will have to go back there to buy more.  *finds any excuse*I'm tired now and I'm not in bed, yet! Eeek! 
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| Posted by Pouick at 12:05 AM in Pencil & stuff | 9 bla bla |
| Another Boring Day~ |
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Can't seem to find anything intersesting in my life these days. Boring, boring, boring... I wake up earlier and go to work earlier to leave earlier and be home earlier... for nothing. How boring.  Currently feeling: bored |
| Posted by Pouick at 10:03 PM in Life, Pencil & stuff | 4 bla bla |
| October 6th, 2006 |
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It's been weeks now that I'm struggling with deep sadness, demotivation, unhappy feelings, indecision, lack of will power... I am trying to keep on smiling, to not make people feel all these things and continue to act as I used to but it's more and more difficult. I'm trying harder at work since I had this talk with my manager. I can understand my bad mood is not a good thing for the team so I really try to be the usual me 8 hours a day, 5 days a week. Not that easy but I think I'm doing OK. I fool a large number. Aside from work, I'm trying too. I don't intend to scare people away. I don't really want to end up all alone. And I don't want to be that depressive chick every one will run away from. But I'm a bit sharp on the edges so not many people will take the time to get to really know me . And I suppose people who get to really, really, really know me can get scared anyway. I guess I'm to be known just between 'a little' and 'really, really good'. So yeah... I'm trying to keep it light and joyful or at least normal. It's starting to be like a reflex. I don't know if it's a good thing or not. But sometimes, I just can't pretend anymore. Sometimes, like today, a little something happens and the day is ruined. I can't cope. I just need to hide, avoid people, not talk to anyone. Be left alone. And at the same time, I crave for rescue. And if the rescue shows up, I push it away. I just want to slap myself, for being so weak, for letting things get to me so easily, for being so unable to help myself, for being so dependant on people... Flo, my cousin so far away, you actually made me cry this morning with your kind words. I'm sure I looked a bit stupid, in front of my screen, crying while I should be checking my pricing... Hopefully, no one saw me. You're trying really hard to be my friend and I'm sorry I'm not able to open the door that easily. I'm sorry to make you worry. But don't. I'm used to survival. And for what it's worth, I'm happy to count you as a member of my family and I'm sure we will be friends someday. It'll just take time. Sorry people for the depressing words. I just felt like not covering or hiding anymore. Maybe some of you need to know what's going on in my head. Or not... Currently feeling: empty |
| Posted by Pouick at 10:52 AM in Life | 2 bla bla |
| October 11th, 2006 |
| I Need To Kill Someone~ |
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I have this feeling right now. I really, really want to hurt someone, something, anything. I have a lot of anger that needs to explode! I think it's time to resume my ninjutsu activity. Not that I will be kicking some ass there, but at least I will go back to dealing with extreme feelings and all. I lost my peace of mind and the tiniest thing pisses me off. At least I got my car back so I can listen to heavy loud music during the ride home. That uses to calm me down a little. We'll see. For now, I still have to deal with major pricing issues and stupid systems and people bugging me for too many things.
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| Posted by Pouick at 04:53 PM in Work, Rants | bla me? |
| October 13th, 2006 |
| Friday Evening Randomness~ |
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I'm planning yet another trip to Belgium. Since I'm not that rich these days, I was thinking of applying the well known carpool method. But I have issue with sharing my environment with annoying people. I couldn't imagine myself riding for 8h both ways with people who would complain about anything. So no smoking, no complaining about the driving or the music, departure from Geneva Friday morning, return on Monday evening, split of the gas and highway costs, no negotiation possible. It actually worked... The car will be full. • ♥ ★ ♥ • I was considering buying the PT Cruiser a few months back but seeing the cost of the gas going higher and higher (and we know it will not get better anytime soon), I started to look for something else. I stopped my choices on two models of gas engine + electric motor : the Honda Civic Hybrid and the Toyota Prius. Good thing being I would not have to pay the car tax anymore since these are 'green cars'. Woohoo! So far, my preference goes to the Honda. • ♥ ★ ♥ • Nothing planned this weekend. I should definitely start this major cleaning session I've been postponing for so long. Since I'm broke and cannot do much anyway, I might give it a go. Although, I was maybe not a good idea to get the season 2 of Lost and Desperate Housewives. • ♥ ★ ♥ • One of my colleague's birthday was today but since she took the day off, we will celebrate on Monday. My manager didn't want to do the usual boring stuff so she organized a major treasure hunt in the office, with clues, questions and all. That should be a very productive Monday, I'm sure. I'm at the end of clue #1 with question #1 and clue #2. To be continued... • ♥ ★ ♥ • It's the weekend! Weeeeeeee!
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| Posted by Pouick at 04:36 PM in Life, Random | 8 bla bla |
| About That T-shirt I bought In Sweden...~ |
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| Posted by Pouick at 08:07 PM in Pencil & stuff | 7 bla bla |
| October 24th, 2006 |
| Oops!~ |
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It's already Wednesday! And I'm not done with my major cleaning cession. I think I've been avoiding it for way too long after my knee accident. Shame on me! Now I'm paying the price...
Currently feeling: tired |
| Posted by Pouick at 11:14 PM in Life | 5 bla bla |
| October 27th, 2006 |
| The Weather Is Mad~ |
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I ate outside for lunch today. It's October! I was only wearing a t-shirt and it was way too warn! The food was delicious, the company was great but all this time I was enjoying the sunlight on my shoulders, I was thinking about mother nature... We're killing her. She's dying. And US and Aussie don't want to ratify the Kyoto Protocol... Way to go, people!
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| Posted by Pouick at 04:17 PM in Rants | 3 bla bla |
